Mercredi 17 septembre 2008
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I'm so afraid of how my life's gonna go.
This is not only about my situation but about the all life. I'm afraid of never finding real love. I mean a girl who does not care if I'm handicapped or not. A girl who would
be capable to see through my soul. Cause I really not act like other men but I'm always scared.
Yesterday I virtually met a girl named Patricia and this is really strange cause I went on a website, where you can improve different languages skills, and I saw that I have got an e-mail.
Then I replied and asked her to forgive me cause I didn't log on very often anymore, I gave her my messenger and e-mail adresses.
Guess what? She replied the same day.
Even I don't want to see destiny's sign in everything anymore, I have to recognize that was really weird.
I just want to discuss and exchange with her cause she spend about three years in Canada, I guess.
Now I really prefer talking english cause when I do, I'm constantly learning about something.
I just feel great and it seems to be very natural.
By the way, why do men have to act like fools with women?
I'm mean cheating on them and thinking with they've got in their pants? I don't want and I will never act like them. For what, tell me what's the result?
Women don't trust in any men anymore, they suffer too much...
Congratulations, you're big boy. Sorry but I don't think so.
So you think you're tough just because you had sex with another woman and your girl did not catch you?
And what goes around, comes around...
But I forgot, an able man who's a lier and a cheater has more chances to get a girl than a right man who's handicapped. He has to suffer of his so uncomfortable situation but also of spending his
all life alone?
Fine, is it really the deal?
I'd never become a bastard with women, I hate this way to be.
I'm far away the main topic I wanted to talk about but I really think that things are more simple in english than they were in french. I don't know why but this is my point.
Maybe I would never find a girl who would share my vision of love but finally, I don't care cause I'm happy, happy to have another chance to live, happy to learn, happy to share things, happy to
help those who really need to, happy to create, happy to achieve and most of all, happy of being a good person with amazing parents.
Later...
Par tresh
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Publié dans : BLUES
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